I just realized how happy I am! I just checked my bank balance and I have a total of $36.00. That's right - 3 tens, a five and one single. Thirty-six bucks. Whoo--hoo.
I went into my account just now to see if a few things I'd returned had been credited. That is when I saw this number. Normally, I would have gone into a mild state of fear and anxiety, followed by worry and confusion. I did, of course, check to see that everything was in order, and it was. Having paid all my bills in total at the same time just a few days ago (something that hasn't happened in a few years) it did make sense that my balance would be low.
But that isn't the point. The point is, I don't even care. It is not a big deal, or any kind of deal, AT ALL. The money, in or out, is not my concern. I get it now - it's true - money is an illusion. I am not bound, or rather, my happiness is not bound by my wealth, or in this case, lack thereof. This is nothing short of amazing. I. Don't. Care.
I feel at once liberated and peaceful. I know now that I can trust that I am truly taken care of and my maintenance is not my concern. I am God's problem now. Even with that, if I feel, "Oh, Divine Mother will look out for me", or "Lord Shiva is my Divine Father, he is taking care of me", it somehow doesn't seem real anymore. I only have those affirmations because they were required for my security. But with the whole sense of worry gone, I am unconditionally supported and I know it. I don't have to ask - it is understood. It is in me, around me, above and below me; I am a Child of the Universe and I was placed here for a specific mission. In light of that, what is there to worry for? As I have often told my Mother/Father God, "You put me here. Now take care of my earthly needs if you want me to do Your work." Done and done.

