Wow, wow, wow...the energy these days has been awesome!
Ever since December 12, 2012, I have been directly sensing terrific and deep energy, and in recent days, it is playfully responding to whatever I do. Right around the 12/12 portal, when we were receiving new downloads, I was knocked off my feet - but in a very cosmic way. So each time I come back, it is as though I am observing a more integrated sensibility - I am given a new way to see something in my life. And the feeling of the energy changes every few days. Most recently, I went out of town, which resulted in feeling more grounded - out of my head and in my body. I am clearer and have a renewed sense of several important aspects of my life.
I managed to unplug for a few days and spend some time up in Woodstock, New York. I was in a somewhat remote area, surrounded by trees, hudled in the hills. I got away from the noise and pace of the City, and was up there alone, with a fireplace, my books and a journal. It was the best therapy I could have had. After five days, though, I was ready to come home. As charming as it all was, when I had my fill, I was ready to return. Coincidentally, a big storm was heading that way, and provided the perfect segue back to Manhattan.
Each time I leave and return, I gain a new appreciation for my life and what it offers. Sometimes I hate it and want to run away, pulling my hair and screaming. It isn't that I hate it so much it's that I have been getting restless and feel it's time for a change. And so I try to make one. Or else I sit and wait for one to happen. It never does. So I try something new again. It doesn't take. So I sit and wait for a change, an outward one, to manifest. Again, no go. This has been the cycle.
This last attempt, my going to the Hudson River Valley to extend my beingness beyond the 10-block radius that is my world, proved interesting. I thought this is IT, Baby, I'm headin' outta town and nobody's gonna try an' stop me! Where was I going, exactly? I didn't know, but I was sure I would find it when I got there. What I went to do, i.e., work on a project I am developing, did NOT go as planned. I wrote down a few pages of notes, then got distracted by... something, most likely by the fireplace needing to be stoked. And I thought I would meditate more, and better, now that I was surrounded by nature. Umm, no, not really. Or at least I would commune with nature and receive a much-needed message, one that would rock my world and give me the answer to at least one of my burning questions. Nope, again - nothing up there spoke to me.
|Lake George by J.W. Casilear|
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